I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I’m still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining types of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a lengthy while, I do not feel alone.

Part of me wanted to remain longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I would be doing so for the wrong reason; as an easy way to prevent my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.

Before I left, Jason asked if I’d had any insights. What I’m about to share wasn’t yet clear in those days; only on the drive away made it happen coalesce.

That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never must have told you, never must have let you see inside acim teacher. Don’t are interested troubling your brain, won’t you let it be?” This confused me as I possibly could not think of anything that I’d said that I felt regret for.

Eventually, the phrase, “don’t are interested troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that probably the most prominent fear I’d in visiting the Monastery was that I would somehow interfere using its residents’reassurance, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I possibly could negatively affect other people’s state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored many of my past experiences and relationships.

This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel as if the belief will be (has been?) released.

You will find other things that happened that felt important, but I can’t think of them right now.